Love is watching someone die

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Never has there been a song I connected to more than this.

Never has there been a song that made me cry.


I miss you dad.

Lessons Learned

And so I stayed up all night

Slept in all day

This is my sound

Thinking about tomorrow won't change how

I feel today

Woke up feeling sad. Slept fine. Dreamt fine. But I was still sad in the morning. The weather is cold with a chance of rain. My favorite kind of weather short of cold with a promise of snow. But I'm still sad.

My 16 month old nephew just came in, a whirlwind tornado of light curls and a silly grin.

He hugged me.

I'm not so sad anymore.